20101205

melog-20101205.log

i ended up asking my wife to take the kids to the book fair yesterday.

after that, we ate at a mexican restaurant. our nephew came along. since his birthday is soon, we paid for his meal and told him that was his birthday and christmas present from us.

ok, maybe we'll still get him something for christmas, if the plumber didn't take all my money with him and his crew.

i did an excellent job of distracting my wife while she tried to study last night. we started off listening to lots of old school hip-hop like run dmc, rob base, young mc, and stuff like that. then, we started listening to the old school r&B ballads from the likes of guy, bell biv, devo, boys 2 men and such. then, we started listening to old school blues like muddy waters. and well . . . that lead from one thing to another.

as a result, i felt obligated to help her study today. so, that's what i've been doing-- helping her with finding in her text book a ton of famous historical figures, their works, and the influences of their work society past and present.

the book, the "end of education", suggested that anyone who would consider oneself to be an educator should have at least read "democracy in america" by alexis de tocqueville. i do not plan on teaching, but i've been told i should be one. but, teaching frightens me, and i feel unworthy attempting this important craft. nevertheless . . . i think i shall read that book next. i so happen to have an abridged copy sitting on my dvd shelf above my tv. i swiped it off my brother's book shelf after he ended up in prison.

hey . . . it's no use to him at the moment.

well, i've got to scan some notes for my wife as she is studying. she wanted to e-mail some of her notes to a classmate that had a death in the family.

my daughter is complaining of a tooth ache. my wife worries it's serious. she says she knows someone who had a five year old daughter just like ours who complained of a tooth ache. the child happened to have cancer and did, according to my wife.

so now, my wife is a bit worried.

i don't want to be totally dismissive. over and over again things like this have come up and they have come to mean nothing. but i never ignore them. i just try to find out the facts and then move on if nothing was ever wrong. i'll do the same here.

but, i couldn't help seeing in my imagination my daughter's lifeless body on a hospital bed flash though my mind. then i thought about my son. then, i thought about them watching me die.

then, i decided i'd get up, clear my head and scan these notes.

and then, before i knew it, i was logging on to blogger.

see how therapeutic writing can be? this is why i must write about me.

i think my nephew came back with a bottle of coke. a few days ago, he brought home several shot sized bottles of crown royal. his office manager gave them to him after work.

great minds think alike.