20101219

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ok. now the rest of my body is becoming sore like my hands.

actually, my hands feel much better, but are still sore. my upper back and legs are getting stiff. my "bowling" arm is getting sore from my wrist up to my elbow.

but, it's not too bad. stiffness more that soreness.

sort of reminds me of working out after falling off the wagon for a while.

so, the feeling is a reminder that i need to work out again.

my mother called me yesterday. she told me that one of my uncles passed away. i didn't know him, but every time, i'm reminded of my dad's passing. i'm also reminded that my life is ticking away, just like his finally did. so it is with my mother, and everyone else that i love.

i don't become sad, exactly, when i think of these things. well, maybe a little, but not tremendously so.

rather, i wonder what could i be doing to improve me life (whatever that means).

i need to live better. seek the wealth of life. not just money-- but all the things that make life more enjoyable. health, time to enjoy one's self, and that feeling you get when you do something meaningful and helpful to change your world around you.

so, time to buy some protein powder, start lifting weights, start doing some cardio, and start pursuing those things i've been putting off for a while now.

sometimes it seems fruitless, because it's hard to start this up, and even harder to keep it up, and even more difficult to start again once you've failed after a year of great progress.

but, we've got to be like that spider in that childhood song, and climb back up that spout again even after the rain has washed us out over and over again.

melog-20101219.log

you know, bowling was really fun, but my fingers are really, really starting to hurt now.

can you say, "carpal tunnel"?

i thought my back would be the casualty of my activities saturday evening, but no . . . it's my hand!

ouch!!

some of the schmoyoho brother's videos have really been crackin' my side!

one about the grocery bagger wasn't very funny, but was interesting. the quote in the video really caught my ears: amateurs practice to get it right, but the pros practice to never get it wrong.

then i reflected upon the creatively behind many of the good videos that they have and their singing talent is actually quite good.

it all made me wish that i was extremely good at something that made me stand out. it made me wish that i could have a masterpiece of some sort in any area of creativity-- music, writing, video, comedy, research-- anything.

maybe one day . . .

i can tell you one thing, though. you can bet your ass that for me, it *won't* be bowling!