but, this time, not with television, but in the workplace.
i never felt like an expert or guru at anything. maybe good or really good at some things, but i don't feel like i've created any master pieces in my life in any field of study.
i work every day and do my best to grow and contribute. i reach for professionalism. i was never formally trained in what i currently do. i just picked it up. i'm good at it. the theme of this blog is even lightly centered around the kind of work that i do.
but wow! what do you do when new people show up and seem light years ahead of you in their sheer knowledge and adeptness-- and are also ten years younger than you?!
makes me feel like an old dog that can't learn new tricks-- and didn't learn any good ones when i had the chance.
feelings like that can make you wonder if you're a failure-- and if you're even useful any more.
and no one wants to become obsolete in this stinking economy!!
as the big contraction of economic viability causes unemployment to grow, being upstaged can feel quite threatening . . .
and can make you feel down right useless, too.
just paint a big ol' L on my forehead.