I had gotten my air conditioning fixed a few days ago. But, now it's not working again.
I also had a long day at work because things weren't working.
I notice that all around me, things don't seem to work.
Entropy. It is what has made the universe, and it is the thing that tears everything apart.
Lately, I feel like I keep fighting my way uphill-- even on the things that I thought would be simple.
I'm getting tired and want a break from all the entropy. A break from the struggle.
I want my air to work. I want the ants to go away in my kitchen. I want the house to stay clean. I want my son to let the toilet lid down and stop rummaging through out the house at 2:00 in the morning when he's in a sleepy stupor. He marches through the house like someone who can't hold his pee any longer, but wanders aimlessly through the house, room by room-- lost.
And sometimes, he doesn't quite make it to the bathroom when he's in that state of mind.
But, that's not his fault. Still though, will he ever grow out of it?
So many broken things to fix. So many broken people, too.
I see why those who seek enlightenment don't own anything.