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well, my wife made it home alright. she had a nice time. she thanked me for not giving her a hard time for going out. she said that she probably won't go out again for a while. she just notices that the environment really isn't her scene. nothing is really going on that makes her fell totally comfortable.

well, i'm working late, but about to go. actually, i sort of phase shifted my hours. so, i'm not working extra exactly. but, i do need to do some maintenance saturday. the joys of system administration!

i found myself extremely tired today. not so much from staying up late. but, i was drained. i think it's from being out of shape.

so, today, i avoided eating left over little caesar's and took some canned salmon and made a sandwich out of it. not great, but not bad either. i plan to take some time to get myself into better shape.

ok, i did find some popcorn in the break-room. but, i also ate the apple that someone left on the "free-for-all" table. so, i think i'm still on track.

i also drank water and green tea, today.

i've been listening though all the albums i own by björk. i'm listening to her medúlla album. when i first heard it, i tossed it aside and only listened to maybe one tract. but, the more i listen to her, the more i enjoy just listening to her singing voice. and so, her songs that i didn't like much sound better over time. and, albums that i wouldn't listen to so much, catch my ear more often.

she's a true musician to me. she seems to love sound itself. i know-- everything she does isn't great to everybody. i understand that. but her music falls on my ears and i like what i hear.

i remember the first time i heard music by björk. i didn't listen to her when she first came out. i didn't think anything over her until around year 2000. my brother had a collection of cd's and i wondered what björk sounded like.

i put in the debut cd and was greeted by "human behavior". man, those beats were tasty. i was hooked just off the first song! i just kept listening to more and more.

i even found myself listening to the sugar cubes. i even found an icelandic jazz cd that she did before her first solo album.

anyway, medúlla is a bit tough to listen to sometimes. the album is mostly a capella. maybe only a few songs have instrumentation that strongly accompanies the vocals on this album. the album is like strange chamber music. some songs are quite beautiful. others are haunting and quite alien. i think that's why it is hard to listen to. you hear all these beautiful sounds with a raw, untamed edge. not each song is like that, but many are.

a few of the greatest musicians were booed and hissed on their debut. but generations later, their works changed music forever.

i don't know if medúlla is one of those albums or not. but, i think björk has truly proven herself as a great musician and artist. i often wonder what her next musical project is.

well, gotta head to the pharmacy. my wife says she thinks she's coming down with a sore throat.

gotta watch that night air-- it'll get you.

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well, my wife is still out. i was trying to wait up for her. for a weeknight, she's been gone a good while.

she expressed some guilt before leaving. she said she felt like she probably needed to stay home with the family and not hang out. she felt like maybe she was going to a scene where she didn't fit it-- a married woman hanging out with a single woman, looking for a catch.

i told her not to feel bad about going out tonight. everybody needs some time to enjoy themselves. but, i also told her that if she ever feels in the future that she's going out in that sort of environment, then maybe she shouldn't go.

she seemed to take that to heart.

well, i'm a bit concerned. i know we're both going to be really tired when it's time to get up and work through the day.

i gotta admit, she was looking really hot when she left-out. i told her she better not pay any attention to any people trying to get in with her.

and nowadays with people being more open about ambivalent sexuality, i have to watch out that i don't lose my wife to another man or woman!

i hope she's alright. it's late for a weeknight.

melog-20101209.log

well . . . today was rather vanilla. but when it comes to life, vanilla is one of my favorite flavors. predictable, safe, and you can add other flavors to it (like chocolate) whenever you decide.

i've been rather drained lately, though. i've got a server at work that keeps freezing up, but the logs don't say anything. it's like having a friend or spouse who won't talk to you, but there's a problem somewhere in your relationship.

and issues like this tend to cause you to lose sleep. they stay on your mind and keep you digging for answers when none seem to be there. yep, that's what this particualr server is doing to me.

i'm sitting in the server room, about to go home and call it a day. noisy place, a server room can be. luckily, we have a small office adjacent to the server room. i can sit here and work, and listen to jimi for a little bit between phone calls.

really makes the time zip by!

my tenant finally got the heat turned on! makes me feel good knowing that all the effort finally make the house habitable.

but, the tenant said that he's short on the rent and asked if i'd wait until monday to collect.

i don't mind, but i hope he doesn't keep putting that off until new years or something.

all i know is, bitch betta have my money.

i paid too much to get the plumbing and heat fixed for someone to live in that house for free!


my wife might go to a party tonight with a new girlfriend of hers. so yeah, it's a girl thing. i need to find myself a party to go to one night. maybe i'll call up my old friend that i bumped into at the chinese restaurant last week. catching up with him and talking about old times would be real good fun, i bet.

but as things are, she keeps going out while i sit at home and watch the kids.

ok, she doesn't go out all the time, but more than i do.

time to add just a little flavor to my vanilla ice cream life.

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ate lunch at backyard burger. tasty.

my wife had the day off today, so i didn't have to get the kids after school.

it's nice not having to run around town so much.


i like our local backyard burger. they play 80's hits all day long via satellite radio.

i like the sense of nostalgia that i get when i sit in their restaurant. not that the best songs come from the 80's exactly-- just that those songs bring back a lot of childhood memories because songs of that error were always in the backdrop.

i heard songs like toto's "rossana", "i wear my sunglasses at night", and "say,say,say" by paul mccartney and michael jackson.

why, i even heard a christmas song by jon bon jovi.

i also tried backyard burger's pecan cobbler. i only found one real problem with their pecan cobbler--

it didn't come with a glass of milk.

melog-20101208.log

wow. snow flurries.

no snowmen, though, i'm afraid. not this time.

snow is unusual around here. but, it does happen now and then.

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well . . . my wife just dumped me for a mini-series on netflix.

i guess i'll go surf the web . . .

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got the kids in bathed and in bed. my mom fixed us a meal over at her house. she usually cooks something for us on the day that my wife often works late. but, sometime she doesn't make very much. and sometimes, well . . . beggars can't be choosers.

i cleaned up in the kitchen a good bit. but, never mind that so much-- it won't last long and no matter how much i do, it never looks all that improved.

it's tough when both the husband and wife have a full schedule. neither of us wants to clean up after a demanding day of running around everywhere trying to please employer, spouse, kids, school, and teachers-- while dodging life's pitfalls as well.

i say this for my wife as well. it's not just me. i know she's in the same shoes as myself. i can't complain if she doesn't clean up. i wouldn't want to (and don't want to) either.

i need to do something to decompress. this journal is a really good start. i think i need to add in some exercise soon to deal with my stress. and, i think i need to cut back on how much running around i do. not quite sure how to accomplish that yet.

i watched a little bit of "win it in a minute" with my mom. that was fun. two sisters from tennessee trying to pay off their mother's mortgage.

i wonder if they won. the internet can tell me later.

i've also heard that elizabeth edwards passed away. she is the wife of senator john edwards. i wonder how their relationship ended up after it came out that he cheated on her a short while back. i hope they made amends before she died.

my wife is home now. i'd better pay more attention to her now.